YSunday, January 15, 2006
HUMANS are just too hard to crack sometimes
there are soo many kinds that listing every type will not be off much use
humans naturally have expectations and limitations.
only that it varies based on tolerance and exposure.
the expectations of someone can also be of hurt to oneself as it may be too high
Naturally, we wun wana take that expectation down a notch.
knowing that we can achieve it one day.
ONE DAY.
when?
not sure.heh
all that's left to be said and questioned is-
are these people arrogant? over-confident? patient? optimistic? or just dumb?
not dumb i hope.
i spent the day with my sister today and shared the juices of our lives.
as moved as i am by her determination to make things right, i somehow feel tat she's still missing something somewer..perhaps it could be the emptiness that's yearning to be filled..
but please, dun pour her a glass of water.
fill her a cup of fresh, purified water from the mountains.
she's special..she deserves something more than the water that you drink everyday.
more than the time taken for you to collect the water and pour..
more than your rambling and your exhaustion.
she's special...kak sha-u're special and i love you
the breakups and hurt that's happening around me just makes me think..
what could be the ways to avoid such complication and hurt?
could it be patience and time?
im really not sure..
cuz there are just too many hurt and disatisfied human beings everywhere.
too much.
half of which choose to keep it within themselves
while some of the rest put him/herself in third place while explaining the situation.
why this? what happened to love and trust?is it not already there?
Please..
dun be a fool for going into depression and self-mutilation.
dun be an ass by keeping it to yourself wen asked.
dun be reluctant..cuz u will feell better..trust me-u'll feel better.
when things dun happen the way they want it to be you curl up in remorse and shut yourself off from the world that's revolving in silence.you choose to hurt alone cuz u dun wana trouble others not knowing how much lesser damage u'd cause if u had done otherwise.
why??? why suffer in silence??till now, im still not sure why.
caught in such a state having reacted the same way with the mutilation and adrenaline that derives from it..i long to be heard..and no one hears me..no one really heard me.
so i spoke to myself.
and then i found a friend..
and the friend listened and told me to pray.he just told me to pray..
so do that and do it intently with your hope and purpose in mind..start serving Him the way you should..the way you really should.don't worry..it's easy. it's the society that's making it difficult.trust me.
whichever path u are at now..just stop and ask yourself-
Am i doing th right thing? What if i were to die tomorrow??
if your answer is negative to the former..stop what you are doing now.
for u can always have the possibilities of dying anytime.
seek for forgiveness from the Lord and start over. do it and i promise you the serenity and sense of belonging that comes with it.
there was once when i didnt believe-it brought me happiness but more physical and mental hurt than i could ever imagine.
now, it still brought me happiness but it comes with the patience that i have had never imagined i could acquire within me to handle those hurt.there wasnt any physical hurt.only mentally arduous.hehe
u might not be as lucky as i am to have met such a friend..
but u could be lucky by reading tis..
an omen to you..to stop hurting yourself and/or attempting to end ur life.
-u'll just end up handicapped.
everyone has his place and time..evryone has his ways of handling hurt..
but everyone have the same desire to die as exodus to ur predicament.
dun be a coward..face it.
he helped me face it..and im glad..
i can never be filled wit more exhilaration than having him around
added to my list of the most important ppl in my life..
- Ellyas Rezzal :) haha
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